Once again I stand alone

I always try to remain positive for friends and family ,facebook but sometimes things just arise that break you down and make you feel like absolute shit.Today i took my mom for foot surgery *Yes very Minor*surgery but its a principal that i am talking about  No One was there for me .My brothers never came to see about their own mother once again....I sit alone in the waiting room after being choked up seeing them wheel her away to the OR yes once again Minor Surgery  but i hate hospitals and i always feel that every time someone is wheeled away it could be the last time you see them *Inner Fear*.I sat alone while other families  Yes families and Spouses were there for other people with minor surgeries Just for support but once again I was alone...What hurts my heart the most is that I can be there for everyone else Lending a hand,lending an ear,a shoulder to cry on but the ones i love the most never asked do you just want me to sit with you ,It just goes to show so many people are out for themselves .Granted i probably would have said no if someone did ask if I wanted someone to sit with me ,but it would be nice to have an option.The Option never came.I will continue being my selfless self because i dont really expect anything in return and i want to continue being that good hearted person my grams always wanted me to be. often people do get what they deserve for being selfish my brothers included  I digress

Why do people Lie?

Welli really dont understand people and you would think after being on this earth for 42 years i would have a good understanding but i dont.I really try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt.I myself try not to lie to people and keep it real  Why cant i get the same respect?I actually have the gift of seeing through peoples bullshit.It really makes them look even more stupid.Selfishness always prevails.No matter what.Why would someone pretend that your well being is of concern when it Really is all about themselves?Its just so amazing to me...I guess selfishness ,lying  comes so second nature to people its hard to break away from

No Issues

Good Morning ,I havent blogged in awhile mainly because i really dont have any huge issues that i cant deal with in my own little head LOL.I have been pretty much on the mellow end of everything and just trying to enjoy the fact that i have alot more than what alot of people have and just accepting that..The one major thing that has happened in the past week is that i got my best friend back..We went all summer without a word to each other  mainly because i was afraid of swallowing my pride and reaching out to him.We have picked up just as if we have never been apart.That is true friendship.I love him.I have learned a lesson with this tho friends will always be there and the fact we could easily forgive each other shows that! Other than that nothing else really ,just keeping it moving and being me