WHere are my dreams!

I woke up this morning after a good nights sleep that doesnt come all that often and i had this empty feeling,It wasn't a bad feeling or a whoa is me feeling but I just asked myself why dont i have any dreams that i want to achieve.Once upon a time i had the american dream and i dont really anymore and now i feel a little lost.I just feel empty.I have discovered something about myself that i have been doing a long time but didnt know the right terminology for it until i was watching Deal or No Deal the other night.Its called Paying it Forward...I honestly think i have been doing it for so long (Its a great thing) but there really isnt any me anymore.That is a huge part of me however has it left me at the point that the half of me that needs to live for myself sometime just gone?I am the biggest critic of myself.I dont really know how to live for myself,go out find my own dreams,.Guiermo My *Bestest Friend* is teaching me alot without knowing he is teaching me alot.Its always an adventure hanging out with him no matter what it is is never a dull moment.He is the white version of me....That really didnt have anything to do with the blog but it hit me while i was writing so it went to my finger tips lol. I hope to find my own dream soon   I digress

Getting some prospective

Good Morning ,I havent blogged much lately because i am pretty mellow yellow right now.I am on staycation and loving it so far.It was a beautiful weekend even tho i had to be there for Guiermo when he put down a family pet.It was a ruff moment but a bonding experience plus i know he would do anything he could for me .I am starting to get really anxious by the fact that we are moving sometime over the next few months.I still feel unsettled .I expected not to move around alot once i moved into my house but here i am ....I also know that this isnt a stationery move .I lik eliving in a house doing whatever and being able to do whatever i want to the place .Oh well it will come again because thats where my heart lies ,eventhough i have no problems with our apartment now but i know what i prefer.Anyways i have finally started to decide on how i am shaping my financial future and what needs to happen to make it alot more secure for myself.(A huge Plus) I guess i should decide soon what i want to do today  Mall shopping possibly with The G and V maybe go see Tim j My buddy ..We will see I digress