Double Edged Sword

I had to put this into words because sometimes i look in the mirror and i dont know the person i am looking at....I realize that for as compassionate and caring as i can be i am equally heartless.*Today i said to a friend that if he passed out on the sidewalk i would just call 911 i wont even try and revive him..That is just not right to say and hurtful at the same time..Why am i this person? I really dont want to be the person that is not so nice but at the same time i just get tired of people pushing me around because i am kind to people.Well i guess i need to find the balance somehow and come back to the nicer me.

Well time to get up on my soap box,We went out tonite and had a few drinks which was fine but quite a few interesting things happened.For starters you have to love when someone that doesnt really have any self-esteem pushes themselves on everyone just so they feel like they are liked or appreciated..*No its not me because i dont have to do such things except be myself!I spent the early part of the evening sober and watched and couldnt believe the things you realize when alcohol isnt involved.I guess when you are a skinny,bi-polarish person that hates everything about themselves except their hair its what you have to do.Anyways continuing on to the drag-show   what has ever become of this city?Once upon a time when Armageddon was on stage there used to be an appreciation for the art. Drag takes alot of investment and time and this is how people are rewared  .Now when performers go on stage it looks like they are lucky to leave with 20 bucks on a good night...Its so sad that it has come to this  We need to get it together as a gay community...

Bad Bar Night

I cant believe how the gay lifestyle has dwindled down in Pittsburgh. I met Vincent at work tonite to go out for a drink afterwards.Much to my surprise after not being at Lucky' after several months that there was really no one out.Once upon a time it was packed on a wednesday night .I was very disappointed that there was only 1 dancer and the Dj didnt start spinning until later in the evening.Why has it come down to this?Is it because of social networking and the internet that has made it so easy to meet people that you dont have to come to the bars anymore?


I am a little tired so i will have more to say tomorrow    I digress

Random Rant

I was having a  conversation with a friend of mine yesterday and we were talking about how he now thinks he has the perfect relationship and a guy that doesn't look at other bois and has only eyes for him HA! Unfortunately i had to break it down to him and shatter his bubble.

1)Men are predators
2)Men are always looking at the next dick and str8 men are looking at women
3)The full story is never told *I was told that the guy had a partner for 17 yrs and no one strayed or played

Hmm in Gay Life I highly doubt it,the story is told according to what the person wants to hear!
4)Men are always sneaky *Chatting and texting sending dirty pics and think their boyfriends dont know what they are up too
5)Gay men are always trying to get something they dont have   rather they see a couple and they want to be part of it  or just trying to F*ck half of the couple


No one is ever 100 percent committed

Talking about sex with another guy other than your partner ,making plans to have sex with another is all a form of unfaithfulness

Its a shame when u have to keep it 100 about the lifestyle because some people like to be Naive...

I think all men should be real with themselves  There is a slut in most men and they need to not try and say that there isnt

just a random rant

UGH WHAT A DAY

GOOD EVENING,I AM FINALLY HOME AND I  HAVE TO SAY THIS IS TOO MUCH OF A DAY FOR FACEBOOK TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE,LET ME TELL YINZ....I THOUGHT TODAY WAS GOING TO BE AN OK DAY BUT I GET TO MY CAR AND THERE IS YET ANOTHER $20.00 TICKET,THEN THE ASSHOLE RECIPIENTS OF NON -DESERVING GOVERNMENT FUNDS WERE OUT IN FULL-FORCE TODAY..TOTALLY RUINED ANY ENJOYMENT OF THE WEEKEND.tHEN ON TOP OF THAT BEING WORRIED THAT MY MOM HAD TO HAVE A STINT PUT IN HER HEART THANKFULLY THAT WORKED OUT.

I AM GLAD I AM HOME AND AWAY FROM PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE I NEED A BREAK!I WAS WITH PEOPLE ALL DAY YESTERDAY *THAT I LOVE* DONT GET ME WRONG  BUT I JUST NEED MY EMOTION RE-BUILDING QUIET TIME RIGHT NOW!

I DIGRESS