The Sacrifice

Here it is the day of Gaga and i really have nothing to do except make myself pretty  and relax and often coming with that relaxation is too much time to think.I wonder where i have been all these years...I have lost myself or did i really ever have control of myself..I dont know where i lost the ability to trust my instincts,How did i become the person that always sacrifices things for people and I wonder if the shoe was on the other foot would things be sacrificed for me?I guess its hard to know and probably best not to becasue i think in many cases it wouldnt be the answer i would want to hear...So much resentment over the years to let go of....I digress

SOUL MATES

I havent written all week of course because i have  been on vacation and i dont have many issues that i need to work thru when work isnt related "Sad to Say" but I digress....I am just reflecting on the topic of soul mates and how we are givin more than just one.....I feel really good about this, I have the soulmate that I chose to spend my life with and day to day....then i have my soulmates that are best friends, there are 3 .How goofy does this sound but true...I am truely blessed...Just to set the record staright its not a sexual thing with my soulmates  Emotional connection ...Totally awesome experience that i havent felt in 20 years of my adult life or at least i wasnt wise enough to realize it    I digress

Shady is Shady does

I wish i could start my own tv spot..or therapy session because i get the weirdest scenarios that go on around me ..strange ! People get so funny change everyday as the wind blows maybe it sjust me being overly sensitive but I dont think so...I digress...Lets see how this day of the Valentine goes....

R I P Prancer

Well this morning i have so many emotions running through me i cant stand it.....I got a text from my ex that our Dachsund had passed away.....It was hard to keep things together because i was hanging out with Randy  so I just continued to drink....Of Course this morning it hit me like a ton of bricks....Poor Prancer.....  God its been a long 7 months for me..... Robberies, Vincent being laid off, having my new store taken away from me, Now my prancer dying   God Help me! Why ?   I have to pull it together before going to work

Early to Rise late to Bed

Well I woke up super early this morning after going to bed later than i normally do...I dont feel i slept to well at all.It was such a dramatic Sunday that just spilled over into Monday that left alot of questions Why? Well I guess 1 thinks that can apply to the Superbowl but No!My friends got caught in a dramafest that i ended up right smack in the middle,,,Why me LOL? I guess i really dont mind it much because even tho i am much like my mother with the Bitchy side i  have the good nature of my Grams (RIP).She was an amazing woman that anyone could talk to about anything and everyone loved her..I digress.... Its Snowing again and this is really getting super sickening......  Time to Facebook

My Drunken Ass

So you would think i would know better than to do 5 shots and a pitcher of beer last night..I dance danced danced my ass off like there was no tomorrow but i paid for it dearly today when i could barely hold my head up from exaustion...O well have to live life before it passes you by my dad always said.I went to a Superbowl party tonite (after i felt human) which turned out just to be more of a party with me drinking and not paying any attention to the SUPERSUCK on tv..yada yada...I digress.Anyways i learned some wonderful things throughout the day things i really cant even share on my blog....but just to know that some people really care...I digress ...I am done talking and feeling like i need to check my email and go to bed before i head to hellpit tomorrow

Well i am home after a long day of craziness ...to start with a screaming Fetus that the ghetto mother wouldnt shut it up,to the Access card wanna be american express card carriers ....Oddly enough they were all nice when they were checking out Wtf  I actually dont have anything really down right nasty to say Maybe tomorrow

TGIF

Its Friday and it really seems like this has been a long week (not that i want to push time)...I have been up for about 45 mins and  I have facebooked and said hello to all of my friends and now its time to get ready for hell the place i call work..I know alot of checks will be out today so lets see how many ghetto asses i will have walking through today..its so hard to be nice all the time when if you are the slight bit ignorant they want to call home office and report you...Since when has lowlifes deserve to be treated with respect?They are the bottomfeeders of retail

so i am going back to the place i call hell tomorrow.Its draining sometimes to go there a deal with all the crap and the customers omg I never know what kind of story i will have ....I guess for now i shouldnt even think about it I am home in a relaxed enviroment

Hi Folks and welcome to my blog....I am trying this out and have no idea what i am doing but a friend of mine suggested that i start a blog because i always have interesting stuff to talk about in my Effin Life.