The Sacrifice

Here it is the day of Gaga and i really have nothing to do except make myself pretty  and relax and often coming with that relaxation is too much time to think.I wonder where i have been all these years...I have lost myself or did i really ever have control of myself..I dont know where i lost the ability to trust my instincts,How did i become the person that always sacrifices things for people and I wonder if the shoe was on the other foot would things be sacrificed for me?I guess its hard to know and probably best not to becasue i think in many cases it wouldnt be the answer i would want to hear...So much resentment over the years to let go of....I digress