ROCK AND A HARD PLACE

You know sometimes its hard to have desires,wants ,needs wishes...Every cloud has a silver lining...Blah blah blah.i think i have managed to find a few silver linings,however it doesnt totally solve the desires part of it. Even tho i will never share my true desires with anyone because they are very dear to my heart  i can share a wish. I wish  i didnt have to always work so hard for what i want....I am a good man,I am there for my family,my friends   but i can never catch a break for myself...I dont ask for much (However i can say that 1 of the best rewards is that i have new people in my life tha tare absolutely wonderful) I just wish i could catch a break!  No pity  party here tho......I had a distant thought of thinking i should just sell drugs or something  but i know i would get caught....O what to do i have no idea,,,,,,but when you know its not working the way it is you have to do something to get ahead...   what does 1 do when you are 42 and confused and conflicted?

EMOTIONS

I WAS THINKING TO MYSELF TODAY HOW OVER THE PAST 6MONTHS MY EMOTIONS HAVE BEEN SO OVERWHELMING,HOPE HAD BEEN LOST,SOMETIMES I FELT I COULDNT GO ON....HOWEVER I DISCOVERED I HAVE REASONS TO HOLD MY HEAD UP ...I AM LOVED...(DEARLY) GRANTED i HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN THAT, BUT I BELIEVE IT NOW AND MY EMOTIONS HAVE BEEN SO HIGH THE PAST WEEK I JUST WANT TO JUMP OUT OF MY SKIN  I AM GOING TO RIDE THE WAVE FOR AWHILE

Friends

It is so amazing to think that i went through part of my life without the great people i have around me right now.. I   love my guys and girls...Everyday i have someone new to chat with and talk to listen to and hang with ...I think i really had to do something right along the way..I sometimes wish that i didnt have to work so that all i had to do was spend time with my peeps LOL thats a fantasy unless i hit the lottery LOL.. I digress  I feel special