THE ICING ON THE CAKE

So many things happened over these past few years that just have yanked my brain in so many different directions  I feel numb  just plain numb.I am in an emotional limbo now that my Mom just told me today that its a possibility that my baby brother could get 20-40 years in prison Fuck MY LIfe..My heart is hurting because i love my little brother alot because inspite of anything that he has done He values family the most just like I do..I know I have to keep a strong faith just because I know if i let go for 1 second I will lose all control .I fight everyday to keep my sanity.I feel the sadness behind my eyes..Sometimes only drinking and forgetting everything is what makes me feel better. It is really unbearable to think i could never see my brother walk free after this My mother could never see him walk free again  and That KILLS Me Inside  Kills me inside i cant even begin to explain that..I digress,,,I cant keep writing because i am feeling overwhelmed