Take Charge

Today was the point where i had to stop take a look around and think this is it i have to start taking control of my life...Everyday I spin my wheels constantly turning.My surroundings suck....I know i can do so much better for myself than what i am doing,Being the Happier me is making me take a closer look at what causes me grief. I have to start dissecting each 1 by 1. I just know i cant keep going with the worry of finances "Constantly".It is 1 of the biggest burdens on my mind.....I really feel the monkey on my back sort of speak.....I plan to change that in a big way  at least i am going to try my damnest.  I actually feel i have the inspiration now to go forth and achieve .Yesterday for the first time in a long time when Guiermo and I went to walmart I wanted to shop till i dropped.Thats something that i am striving for to be able to spend and not worry about it..Also the other day i talked to an old friend that was so down and out I told him to have a good day and he said I dont really have good days anymore.......God i dont want to be that person   I was that person.. Thank god that I had a few key people walk into my life just when i needed it.....I guess its bad to base most of your strength on friends but they are what i have ...I give guiermo the utmost props because He keeps me Balanced and thats a REALLY big thing for me.He is really Like Prozac for me LOL So not kidding......Vincent can find me hard to handle at times just like many  but he can keep me centered an dpull me back....     I digress I am going to have some tea with vince