Let me see what to type here...It was a very quiet evening I slept most of the evening away missed everything no pride no going out However the night wasnt  a bust at all. My body was like take a nap..Even tho i love a good drunken party in the streets or just being drunk period..I am taking care of something very important...."Myself". It took me a long time to realize at the end of the day who do you have to be happy with? I am celebrating the greatest Pride right now...Not even about being gay  I am proud  i have Courage. a Job.Inner Strength .I am proud that i am able to stand up to challenges and i can go against the grain and not really care if i am judged on it.I am Proud of the black man I am today that may not have alot to offer,  but alot to offer...I  finally have emotional highs moreso than emotional lows..I am rambling once again because of course after sleeping most of the evening I am wide awake now...O well I digress  its time for more beauty sleep