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I am sitting here in a quiet cool bedroom kinda thoughtless and typing not sure what i want to say or what i can say or if at times i may say too much .Who the hell knows?I think sometimes i am damned if i do and damned if i dont....I have always like to be the 1 to push the envelope a bit or step outside the box.I am rambling..I had a great weekend but somewhat of a crappy day...I accomplished quite a bit but i wanted to be any where but there...I just couldnt keep my emotions and my thoughts in order....It happens...I made some decisions that raised  some eyebrows, stirred the pot of  unconventional ,....Hell i am not even quite sure what it all means in this pot?This is greek to me  True Story..I joked at first about the whole 2 bf thing because i know people fear what they dont understand typically but then it kinda turned out not to be a joke.I titled the other guy Bf as well because he stepped in not to take me away from  Vincent or to win me over it was never about anything of a sort he helps me emotionally keeps me balanced for lack of a better term..Both he and Vince would do anything for me...Both are giving me what i need right now  (MInds out of the gutter). ANyway  Once again i dont even know what it all means.What the next steps are..However i think i will keep them to myself when i know exactly what they are..I dont want to freak people out    I digress