Open my Heart

Well its another quiet evening up in the bedroom with my blog and my cell phone..I like the quiet and it gives me time to think without interruption of the tv and even Vincent..I had alot of time to think over the past 6weeks and realized that alot of what i post here and on facebook is very vague  most of the time people think its directed a certain way when i am just rambling a.k.a purpose of a blog......I go thru extreme waves of emotions..I do know where most of it stems from Most of mine is finance,family.work related......there is very seldom room for myself i am so busy being the good son,the loving supporting boyfriend,the reliable employee that does work above and beyond the call of my job description........Of course those are all good qualities in a person but I have yet to have yet to be sat down by the main people that should be asking  What does Carter need? How can we help make your life better?Its always take take take....Now someone finally comes along that wants to give and i have a hard time accepting because i am so jaded by only people that want to take from me i am not sure i know how to let someone really take care of me...Thats whats really messed up..I have to to really work on not being so jaded and open my heart..I know i will figure things out much like i always doits just a matter of keeping my spirits high..Its proven good things do come to those who wait..